Nothing but Trouble -A1

Whenever there's a song that I wanna hear (like The One You Love),I would most probably ask Jason to sing it for me.
Jason sings great, though he sings more than unnecessarily. Haha.

I thought I’m kinda overdoing it this month.
I spent too much. I was debating with myself on whether I should buy the small bouquets for his auntie and cousin when I attend their ‘party’ tomorrow.
Seriously I could have chosen not to go. Jurong East (and very east) is a killer for a Serangoon towner like me. Especially on a Tuesday night, especially when I know Tracy would not be around.
And if I go, I could have chosen not to buy anything at all. It’s really ok, I think and seriously it’s fine.
Of cos’ the main problem is I spent too much. I bought stuff (Excluding my own share) for Jason, for my brother, for his cousins and still bought 3 packs of tissues for $1. I just keep withdrawing from the ATM that I thought it IS gonna be abit of a problem for me.

BUT when I thought it would be nice to give his auntie and cousin a nice bouquet each, I thought they might be delighted with flowers(even though it could be the most useless gifts around, their beauty don’t even last.),I thought money just ain’t that important. You can save that another $20 that last you for maybe 2 days or so but you could have spent that another $20 for someone’s smile which is priceless? Even if the flowers aren’t gonna last for just a fortnight, but it is that moment of smile when they receive that flowers that matter to me at least.

I thought I am just one more step to saint or sane but when you read something inspirational and is inspired, try keeping that. That faith perhaps is a mark that differ hell from heaven.

So what am I talking about?

All I wanna say is every gift is one’s efforts & thoughts. Put kids’ presents aside,
I thought buying a bouquet is easy but I ended up walking in a few rounds in Raffles place (while I was there today. I loathe that place that stinks of something..something dead.) just to find a floral shop. Maybe I am idiotically directionless in Raffles place but still it’s that efforts and thoughts that mark up the price of what that 3 roses originally cost.

So next time even when you received something you didn’t really fancy, at least thank that person from the heart. It makes a lot of difference than just a ‘heh..thanks.’

Speaking of Raffles Place, I dunno why I just can’t like that place enough. People there could never smile. People there are always looking at something, somewhere. People there could never slow down. Even that floral auntie was not smiling till she finally got warmed up by/to me. And no, that Mr Bean’s crew was so stern looking and they have the worse pearls around! I hate tasteless pearls!

Something’s quite wrong with that place. It was badly heated by the blocks of bricks, metals, concrete. I was feeling really hot when I was there.

Remind me part and parcel of passages in Tuesday with Morrie. Maybe we need people like them to work in that kinda places,over crowded by banks and banks and banks, to keep the economy going. (which is still a debatable news for people like me)

I guess I would never work there IF I have a choice.

Compared to a congested place like there, Selegie seems much friendlier and H.Front seems much cooler.

But again, how does it matter where you are when people are the factor?

Something’s missing somewhere in their place and soul, can’t help them.
I am figuring a way to find that myself.

Anyway hope tomorrow ain’t as bad as I thought. Or really I haven’t thought it as bad yet. Just hope I can handle it.